How I wish...

What a moody day again... I saw this in someone's pm today "don't know when she'll be back again." Guess one of my friends who's in LDR is missing his gf. How I wish my bf would say that... Sometimes it feels like a person like me will never have someone who'd really appreciate me. Somehow ppl take for granted of those who do not say much about how they feel. For instance, logically it's not easy, logically she should be sad... if a guy who showed interest to a girl, changes his target even tho she had constantly stay in touch with him.

I just don't know how to tell ppl how I feel but that doesn't mean I don't feel anything... Thinking too much, being afraid that telling others how I feel will make ppl feel guilty or sorry for me.. all these lead me to always keep things to myself. I can only blame myself for keeping quiet about things but I just can't help it.. I just can't tell ppl how I really feel... Really hate myself for thinking for others so much. Really hope that someday I'd meet someone who'd know how I feel without me telling... someone who would choose not to bully me eventho he's able to..

I know I know, logically the bottom line is that I still have to tell if I really want someone to know how I feel.. Just wanna complain and say what I really wish to have... Can't I? lalalalala..

By Crazied J